Tuesday, June 30, 2009

The Bitter Truth

I guess it was AF after all. I don't know what I did to make her so angry, but she is ticked about something. I stayed home from work today, because I couldn't even get out of bed.

Emotionally and spiritually, I just feel drained. I have no explanation for the strange symptoms, and I am confused. Not only has infertility robbed us of the joy of trying to conceive, but now - if we ever do get pregnant - we're going to be so afraid to believe that it's true. We won't get to enjoy the moment.

Life isn't fair. I know that. But I feel like somewhere along the line, something is supposed to go "right" for us. I thought this was finally it. And then, it wasn't.

ETA: Thanks for all the supportive comments over the past few days. I really appreciate them. My bloggy friends are wonderful!!

5 comments:

just me, dawn said...

sending you a big hug! sorry AF showed her hideous face :(

Hillary said...

That is a bitter truth -- I'm so sorry :( Sending big hugs...

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Joy said...

SUPER BIG E*HUGS*

Susan Sene said...

Sorry about your struggles...it doesn't seem fair at all - especially when all these people who don't mean to or have no business getting pregnant do. Be encouraged that God understand your frustration...cling to the truth of your Savior!

Serendipity said...

aww sweetie I'm so sorry, I was really hoping for you.