Thursday, March 26, 2009

Danger, Will Robinson!

Bomb!I thought I would post a picture of myself for all you ICLW-er's, whom I've never met IRL. Yep, that's me to the left...a big bomb with a short fuse.

Have you ever had one of those cycles that just won't end? When AF won't show, but all her friends are partying it up like the guest of honor is right around the corner? My life over the last two weeks reads like a Midol commercial. I wake up in the middle of the night if I roll over on my chest, because it hurts so badly. I am so on edge that I cry one minute, laugh the next, and then become filled with rage. (I've discovered that I have very strong feelings about how toilet paper should be loaded into the dispenser. Poor C has a permanent "deer-caught-in-headlights" look; he looks like he keeps hearing the robot from Lost in Space: "Danger, Will Robinson, danger! Run away from the bomb!")

I'm embarrassed to admit that there is absolutely no possibility that AF is taking a hiatus for a good reason. Here's the thing: we actually took precautions not to get pregnant this month. Funny, right? The girl who can't get pregnant and wants to desperately, taking precautions to prevent pregnancy? Why bother? I am fully aware of exactly how stupid that sounds. Maybe what I should say is, I took precautions against getting my hopes shattered yet again. I just needed a break. And I guess I'm glad I took one...because we all know what I would have thought about AF disappearing otherwise.

So, here's the new roadmap: I have an appointment on Tuesday with the doctor who did my IUI's (not the RE who will do our IVF). I'm going to beg for some provera to put me out of my misery, and I have some questions for her about what else might be wrong. Not to mention why the heck AF is taking a vacation when my weight and diet are healthier than ever...after I talk to her I'm going to schedule a new consult with the RE. And then, I'm going to kick some IVF @$$. That is, if I don't explode first.

(Bomb photo credit: taken by woodsy and downloaded from stock.xchng.)

16 comments:

Nic said...

I love the picture of you, I think we all feel like that at times!! Hope AF appears soon ~ICLW

Queenie. . . said...

That's so frustrating. After my miscarriage, I had no AF for 3 months. And of course I was stubborn, and refused to get anything for it, which was just stupid of me. I hope it comes soon, or at least the drugs bring it on.

Parenthood For Me said...

Stopping by for ICLW. I like your sarcasm! You sound like me. Do what you have to do to stay sane.
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Erica

Joy said...

Sometimes exercise can throw us off periodically. Hopefully AF shows her face soon!!!

awakeintheworld said...

Thank you for your support. I think he found the blog. Things have been escalating, but I am safe. I will let you know when I have a chance to set up a new blog.

KimboSue said...

Hope AF shows her ugly face soon!

ICLW

Ashley said...

I did the same thing once with taking a break and actually avoiding. It definitely felt weird.

Joy said...

Off-topic of your current subject but had to say- I am also sad Atlantis is ending!!! I haven't seen the last 10 episodes yet (we don't have the Sci-Fi channel and they only show episodes 1-10 online). My father-in-law said he saw a preview for Stargate Universe and will record it for us. I'm miffed about it but I'll still give it benefit of doubt! I worried that I'd hate Atlantis over SG-1 and I ended up LOVING it more. Yes, I'm a bonafide dork. LOL! Though Daniel Jackson is still my fave character overall.

We have Angel Wings said...

Good ol' AF. Always keeps us on our toes, doesn't she? What a
B*^$% she is!!

I hope that she shows up soon and things are back to "normal" or as normal as they can get. :)

ICLW

caitsmom said...

Your picture is priceless!!! Thanks for sending me into fits of laughter--and head nods of "yes, yes, yes, makes perfect sense." Sending you hope for diffusion!

Thanks for visiting my blog.

ICLW

Hillary said...

I hope you've gotten AF straightened out by now, and it sounds like you have a great plan of attack. I said a prayer for your IVF cycle!

And thanks for stopping by my blog. :)

http://makingmemom.blogspot.com

Jo said...

So freaking funny. I DID read your back posts, and I am going to add you to my reader.

Thanks for the grin today.

Hugs,
Jo

iambrowneyedgirl said...

I'm crazy about the way the toilet paper is loaded too. But sometimes I'm just so happy that my husband changes the roll at all that I don't make a fuss. Got to pick your battles right?

Hope AF shows up soon and good luck with your next cycle!!

ICLW

Stacie said...

The best line yet--kick some IVF a$$! I hope you do. Good luck!

ICLW

Villagepig said...

Aw hunny, I hope that things ease off a little so that you can take a proper break. I wish I had the words to describe how much I wish I these crappy things weren't happening to such lovely people!

I will keep checking back, love your pic ;-)

VP

Cathy said...

From one PCOSer to another, I can totally relate on the irregular cycles thing. I just came off a 92 day cycle and my hormones were a total wreck! It's funny how appreciative we are for the "simple" things! I hope you get your visit soon.

Best of luck with your new RE!
Cathy