I've been exhausted (combination of lingering OHSS and pregnancy symptoms), and with loads of psychotic drama at work, I've started working from home. So, between naps and bouts of nausea, I've been sitting on the couch hammering away on my laptop. Blogger is but a click away, yet I haven't clicked. I haven't typed. I haven't uploaded ultrasound pictures.
It occurred to me today, that it's because I am afraid. I'm scared that if we make too big of a deal about this pregnancy, something bad will happen and it will all fade away. I guess you could say that God and I are dealing with lots of trust issues. Infertility is a painful road, and it has both shaken and strengthened my faith. But He is good, and He is reminding me of that daily. Here's His reminder for today: ultrasound pictures of our twins...twins who are growing right on schedule and whose hearts are beating strong!
11 comments:
You are not alone in wondering if anything you do will "jinx" your pregnancy. I felt the same way, especially in the beginning, and unfortunately, those thoughts come back even at almost 32 weeks pregnant!
Love the ultrasound pics!! The babies look wonderful!
They're looking great! Congrats. I know all too well the fear of jinxing things, but don't let it stop you from enjoying small victories (like a good 8-9 week scan with beating hearts and babies on track). I'm still in fear mode at 28 weeks, and I don't think it's ever going to disappear.
yay!! they look like little teddy grahams!! I think everyone has the "trusting the Lord" issue at one time or another, i would just take this opportunity to re read bible stories that talk about it and remember, God wants to bless you not harm you!!
example stories: Jonah Zacharriah
♥ ac
HOW WONDERFUL! SO GLAD to see your sweet ones! HUGS!
I think anyone who has gone through IVF lives in fear of jinxing themselves. Congrats on twins!
Awww, they look so precious!! Thank you for sharing!! (((HUGS)))
AWWW...aren't my little niece and nephew soooo cute! My $'s on one boy and one girl - a little j and a little c! Congrats big (soon to be bigger) sister :)
aww they're looking good.
at almost 36 weeks I'm still scared of jinxing things - like Kate said, try not to let it stop you from celebrating the victories and milestones along the way.
Many congratulations on your twins!
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I've been a bad blogger and reader too...
Congratulations! :D:D
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