Monday, December 14, 2009

(Bad) Blogger of the Year Award

It's about that time of year, when the cable channels are filled with programs counting down the Best Dressed Celebrities of 2009, the Worst Feuds, and the Top News Stories. In the same vein, I've decided to award myself the Bad Blogger of the Year Award. It has been almost a month since my last post...and the tragedy is, I don't even have a good excuse.

I've been exhausted (combination of lingering OHSS and pregnancy symptoms), and with loads of psychotic drama at work, I've started working from home. So, between naps and bouts of nausea, I've been sitting on the couch hammering away on my laptop. Blogger is but a click away, yet I haven't clicked. I haven't typed. I haven't uploaded ultrasound pictures.

It occurred to me today, that it's because I am afraid. I'm scared that if we make too big of a deal about this pregnancy, something bad will happen and it will all fade away. I guess you could say that God and I are dealing with lots of trust issues. Infertility is a painful road, and it has both shaken and strengthened my faith. But He is good, and He is reminding me of that daily. Here's His reminder for today: ultrasound pictures of our twins...twins who are growing right on schedule and whose hearts are beating strong!

Baby ABaby B

11 comments:

The Patterson's said...

You are not alone in wondering if anything you do will "jinx" your pregnancy. I felt the same way, especially in the beginning, and unfortunately, those thoughts come back even at almost 32 weeks pregnant!

Love the ultrasound pics!! The babies look wonderful!

Kate said...

They're looking great! Congrats. I know all too well the fear of jinxing things, but don't let it stop you from enjoying small victories (like a good 8-9 week scan with beating hearts and babies on track). I'm still in fear mode at 28 weeks, and I don't think it's ever going to disappear.

finding_ac said...

yay!! they look like little teddy grahams!! I think everyone has the "trusting the Lord" issue at one time or another, i would just take this opportunity to re read bible stories that talk about it and remember, God wants to bless you not harm you!!

example stories: Jonah Zacharriah

♥ ac

embieadoptmom said...

HOW WONDERFUL! SO GLAD to see your sweet ones! HUGS!

Peaches said...

I think anyone who has gone through IVF lives in fear of jinxing themselves. Congrats on twins!

twondra said...

Awww, they look so precious!! Thank you for sharing!! (((HUGS)))

Threefold Blessings :) said...

AWWW...aren't my little niece and nephew soooo cute! My $'s on one boy and one girl - a little j and a little c! Congrats big (soon to be bigger) sister :)

Serendipity said...

aww they're looking good.

at almost 36 weeks I'm still scared of jinxing things - like Kate said, try not to let it stop you from celebrating the victories and milestones along the way.

Hillary said...

Many congratulations on your twins!


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tomi said...

I've been a bad blogger and reader too...

Congratulations! :D:D

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